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What for?

2012-02-02T06:20:00.001+08:00

Just realized I used to be a fool, an idiot. If someone told me that she's calling me back, I'll wait by the phone. Like literally. Not knowing that it's just a way to end a conver. I used to reply to every single msg ppl send. No matter how unimportant it is. I used to trust people whole heartedly. I used to believe that if you keep trying something will work out in the end. I used to be soft hearted. I used to.. But not anymore. Not anymore.

Reality.

2012-02-02T05:24:00.001+08:00

Lol jess, what did you expect? This is reality. Not some fantasy.

Self destruct.

2012-01-25T04:38:00.001+08:00

I'll just keep on hating you. There's no way out of this. Its wrong. You can't expect me to treat like it never happen before. Not like you.

I know I'm making the right choice. But I always wonder what if at that point I did otherwise? What will happen? Where will I be now? Will I be happier? Will they be happier? Will I heal? Will I be ok? again?

Guess I'll never know.

Alone.

2012-01-23T05:53:00.001+08:00

Sitting here alone. Makes me wonder. How should I feel? How should I react? That people can accept? I guess. Nothing. It doesn't matter. How I act, or what I say. It just doesn't matter at all.

This world. All about appearance. All about how lady you are. All about how much you need someone. How you use your words. How you portray yourself. How pretty you are. How smart you are. How you react. How you act.

Sigh. What a shallow world. What a world that I don wanna live in. What a world that I wish doesn't exist. At all. Sigh. I know. This are all too much to hope for. Too much to wish.

But then. This is the world. Now. Right now. People are acting like this. If you're rich. People treat you better. If you're handsome. People treat you nicer. Yup. What a shallow world we all live in. What a shallow world.

You gotta live your life. You gotta enjoy what you should enjoy. You gotta stop thinking if this is ok. That Is ok. You gotta live your life. You gotta live it. It doesnt matter how you're being treated. It doesnt matter. Just live your life. Just live it.

Just smile at everything. Be it good
Or bad. Just. Smile. :)

It will be ok. If. You. Smile.

Signing off.
Jess. :)

Loser

2011-12-19T08:16:00.001+08:00

Because I know... I'll never win.

习惯

2011-12-10T04:03:00.001+08:00

不要对我太好，我不习惯。

Problem.

2011-11-26T14:48:00.001+08:00

So what's the problem?

Stupidness.

2011-09-11T04:17:00.001+08:00

Guys think ugly girls are stupid that they don't sense that they are being a shallow jerk.

2011-09-05T14:58:00.002+08:00

I'm back from Sri Lanka! that place is totally "Paradise on Earth". There's nothing much there to see and buy. Quite disappointed with that place la :(

So I came back from the dental not long ago... went to extract my teeth for braces. Sigh. Please remind me why am I removing two of my healthy teeth when I'm already sort of two teeth!! Will be getting molds for my appliances on this Wednesday. Hope everything goes well. hehehe :)

Leaving on a jet plane.

2011-08-30T12:56:00.001+08:00

Will be jetting off in about 3 hours time.

see ya all soon!

Jess.

I'm still alive!

2011-08-20T15:37:00.002+08:00

Helllooo there! I'm still alive if you're wondering. Been around a year since I last wrote something here. Everything's fine and great (I think). Still managed to graduate though it took a "little" longer than expected. Started a new phase of my life (working phase), which mean it's time to save some $$$ and do something useful. and that is why I've decided to put on braces!

Went for my first consultation on Wednesday at Capital Tower, went through the normal procedures like getting molds and x-ray and checking of the teeth. I'll be Looking forward to my next appointment which my dentist will explain to me what are my various options.

Okay, I hope I will be here more often.

Radom

2010-09-09T01:43:00.000+08:00

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East coast park

2010-07-20T17:09:00.008+08:00

Went cycling on sat with lind and sebas (: Morning was wet wet wet, thought we have to postpone. Lucky the rain stop when we're having our breakfast! Been ages since we met up with sebas. He's still good at irritating me. blah. Pickos belowwwwww ~

making stupid face

Lind with masked guy

canon g11

2010-07-15T10:56:00.003+08:00

Sis and me brought a new cam (: Price was quite reasonable. Picture quality was goooood, photos effects is coool too.

color accent

really?

2010-07-14T03:23:00.001+08:00

I am happy.

yes.

happy.

(:

2010-07-08T23:56:00.004+08:00

遗憾也许也是一种美(:

boring

2010-07-05T14:59:00.001+08:00

Bored x10000000

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2010-07-05T00:12:00.001+08:00

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good things come to an end

2010-07-03T01:50:00.003+08:00

天下没有不散的宴席

終於說出口

2010-06-29T16:15:00.000+08:00

Being used

2010-06-26T23:20:00.003+08:00

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Mount Faber

2010-06-26T20:35:00.003+08:00

Had a fun night at Mount Faber.

Chivas, Martell, Scotch

played alot of stupid games

tiu tiu tiu, 007, poker game, 5 10!

drink drank drunk.

break

2010-06-24T23:36:00.001+08:00

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chivas

2010-06-19T14:38:00.003+08:00

Finally watch karate kid with lind(: Not a bad movie, jaden was kinda cute. =p We met up with bob after that for a drink. Played ~~stupid~~ fun games. We kept losing in 5 10 to him! So irritating~ Waited for him to sober up before he send lind home, and i head back home (:

sick

2010-06-15T20:26:00.002+08:00

Feeling like crap.

credits: Deviantart.

2010-06-14T20:00:00.002+08:00

2010-06-12T21:40:00.002+08:00

Out with mum and sis.

xin wang was great (:

Hope my pay and the gst offset can arrive faster >.<

money money money.

why couldn't you just drop from the sky?

Hate

2010-06-11T19:12:00.006+08:00

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Ruining

2010-04-24T03:00:00.000+08:00

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nobody

2010-04-15T00:43:00.001+08:00

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Should i believe you?

2010-03-15T06:43:00.000+08:00

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She's dead

2010-02-16T05:23:00.000+08:00

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Not meant to be

2010-01-12T03:29:00.004+08:00

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Happy belated New Year!

2010-01-04T03:34:00.003+08:00

Happy belated New Year!

Sorry for not blogging for such a long time,
but nobody give it a damn anyway.

OKAYYY..

before i write down my 2o1o resolutions,

let's take a look at my o9' resolutions...

1. ~~slim down (HAHAHA, try la =x)~~ ehhh. actually manage to lose some weight but gain it back again -.-

2. ~~earn more money~~ errrr... quit my job, eating air.

3. at least go for 10 lesson for each module for 3rd year. hmmm.. still trying to fulfill it.

4. ~~save up~~ trying very hard, but its impossible.

5. be happy i guess so?

Though i din really managed to fulfill what i've set.

I STILL WANNA SET MY 2o1o RESOLUTION LEIII =P

1. be happier than 'o9

2. slim down.

3. grad successfully.

4. find a well paid job.

5. save up.

6. dont be lazy anymore.

Yuppp.. thats all!

school reopening tml, going to sleep now. nights all (:

Alive

2009-12-15T03:28:00.000+08:00

Just to let you all know..

im still..

Alive and kicking.

So near yet so far

2009-11-20T23:49:00.000+08:00

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Better than nothing

2009-10-15T02:16:00.000+08:00

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Sway is the only word

2009-10-11T03:12:00.003+08:00

Helllloooo thereee ~ been a long time since i update, miss me? i know you do, hahahaha. Anyway, new sem have already started, so far so good, i survived the first week of school without ponning (: FYP have already started too, i need to read up more on html, css, and php.

Been really unlucky this few days..

Firstly, I got into a bike accident. Yea.. bike accident! As you all know, I'm taking class 2b lesson now, the lesson went smoothly at first, but i dunno what happened in the end, I just lost control of the bike suddenly, which resulted in BANG-ing into a cdc car. Yea, I'm shock, but the instructor and student inside the car look more shock-ed than me. The scene is really god damn classic, my whole bike are being stuck in the car! Though the impact is quite strong, i only have some bruises, no blood lost (: Now, i kinda have probia already, im still thinking is i should continue learning anot.

Secondly, I don't know what's wrong with me, i keep wanting to fall down when climbing down the stairs. My god, now i see stairs i scared already.

Thirdly and also lastly, My skirt 破洞 went im in school! Somemore its not a small hole, its a bloody big hole la! I even have to buy a damn ugly shorts to wear !!

SWAY anot you tell me?

okay, its 0330 now, gonna sleep already. Still have theory lesson tml (:

有个女孩。。。

2009-09-24T19:57:00.000+08:00

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first practical lesson

2009-09-21T23:12:00.002+08:00

Okay, went for my first practical lesson on sat. Everything was a disaster! The bike is god damn heavy, really super heavy! I couldn't even push my bike to off the side stand.

I didn't really fall off my bike, but i drop my bike quite a number of times. Even the instructor say "Hai yooo" LOL.

Now that I've taken the first lesson, everything seems like a dream. Whole body aching now. 2nd lesson on this coming satt ((:

mia

2009-09-18T04:29:00.003+08:00

Helllllooo world ~ long time no see (:

nothing much happened this few days.

but still happy (:

ps: its the effort you know?

What am i doing

2009-09-17T21:13:00.002+08:00

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Thoughts

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090909

2009-09-09T01:07:00.002+08:00

Firstly... A HAPPPPPPYYYYY 20TH BIRTHHDAYYYY TOOO MYSELFFFF :D
okok, i know i'm olddd, shirley just text me to welcome me to the 20s club. I don't really feel like its my birthday today.

okay, i got nothing much more to say expect that i've watch like more than 15 movies in 3 days. CRAP i'm a nerd.

Hectic week

2009-09-05T15:57:00.002+08:00

This week is a hectic week. Been going out almost everyday this week, met up with lind, rong, and jy as usual. I kinda forget where i went and what i did already, but but i still remember the awesome supper with the awesome people (:

And and, jy successfully managed to pysco me to go clubbing with her on wed night. Butterfac is god damn pack that day, although its a ladies night, why is there so much more guys than girls? Blahhh! Anywayyy~ i had fun :D

YAY! Finally reg for my class 2b. happpyy happppy ~

til then (:

virgin trip to butterfac

2009-09-03T11:40:00.000+08:00

yawnssssss ~ very very tired, just reach home not long ago. Update tonight again, gonna go take a nap and off i go to vivo.

As usual, blogger are being an ass.

class 2b here i come (:

2009-08-31T05:26:00.001+08:00

Always wanted to learn bike since im young, cos im really not a 'car' person. I know i know.. bike really dangerous, butt yea, i still wanna learn. =p Actually wanna to learn after my poly when i got a job with stable income. But but but but but

My ~~irritating~~ beloved brother gonna sponsor me to let me take my bike license! Whoooooo.. happy lo~ think its my advance birthday present. Gonna go reg by next week i think, hope is not 一场欢喜一场空. If everything goes smoothly, hope i can get my license in less than 6 months!

nightssssss :D

Nothing

2009-08-30T00:30:00.001+08:00

Nothing, yup.. nothing much.

just wanna show you all another one of my pics.

=pp

byeeeee.

long hair no more!

2009-08-28T14:04:00.002+08:00

From this...

To this

Helllllllllloooooo thereee ~ yup yup yup, as you can see, i chopped off my hair already! not really short but still short la. =p i was damn nervous at chap2 la, my heart nearly pop out when the hairstylist SNAPPED away my hair.

Sushi with rong is superb! ~~Gossip~~ Updated each other with the things happening, we keep on laughing lo.

Ice cream supper with jy, wh and v is goood !

okok, nothing to update alr, just wanna show u all my short hair, HAHAHAHAHA ~ Looking forward to wed (:

chopping off my hair

2009-08-23T20:09:00.001+08:00

This might be the last 'long hair' pic of me.
cutting hair on wed.
95% will be chopping off my hair!

Paint a smile

2009-08-20T22:00:00.002+08:00

hahahahahahaha
this is so funnnnnnyyy ((:
BLOOOODEDDD~

Lies

2009-08-20T18:16:00.002+08:00

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wireless security

2009-08-20T01:44:00.002+08:00

Just managed to ~~study~~ browse thru all the 6p's for tml test. Feeeling very tired now, gonna sleep soon.

I am very very sad, why can't you go away? I don wanna see you, yea, i don wanna see you ever again ! just go away okay?! Very irritated when i saw you. Yes.. I'm talking about... MY FREAKING BIG PIMPLE! DAMNIT!! somemore its inbetween my eyebrows, freak! i look like a inpunehneh!!!

k, gonna check up on something and off i go to sleep (:

Nonsense

2009-08-19T17:30:00.002+08:00

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bye.

twitter is gonecase shit.

2009-08-18T23:57:00.001+08:00

Very irritated! i wanna tweet but cant! fb-ing talk is cool, quality assurance talk is bored. CE CE here i come.
Anyway.. There's test tml, and its java :/ crap lo. Okayyy, im gonna go bathe now and get some sleep, can't be late tml ((:

If..

2009-08-16T22:51:00.003+08:00

If you pray for love, be loving.

If you pray for wealth, be generous.

If you pray for health, practice health yourself.

Chinatown (:

2009-08-15T21:57:00.001+08:00

Trying out Lomo effect (:

I always look so kid-ish beside them lo ):

Formula 1 (:

2009-08-15T18:29:00.002+08:00

Work is good, singaporean is.. erm. always kiasu. That actually makes my work easierr (: Happy happy! i can sense money coming. job scope is very very very easy toooooo :D

Finding random people to take pics is .. er, cool? hahahaha.

k bye, update pickos again.

FML!

2009-08-12T04:30:00.000+08:00

If you think your life real sucky, you should read this :D

"Today, I received my passport in the mail. They got my birthdate wrong. Then I picked up my birth certificate that I had sent in with the application. Turns out my parents have been celebrating my birthday on the wrong day for 16 years. FML"

"Today, my girlfriend dumped me proclaiming she wanted someone more like her "Edward". I asked her who Edward was. She held up a copy her "Twilight" book. She was talking about a fictional vampire. FML"

"Today, I texted my college boyfriend to tell him how terrible I felt about cheating. He replied saying he was so relieved because he had been cheating on me with a girl in his dorm. I was talking about my math exam. FML"

"Today, I checked my facebook, and my wife of 5 years was listed as single. I then write on her wall that it is ok to announce to be married. She writes back saying that we have to talk and to come to the kitchen. My wife divorced me over facebook. FML"

"Today, my boyfriend brought me breakfast in bed, told me all the things he loved about me, got down on one knee and pulled out the little blue box I had been hoping for, for so long. He opened the box and there was a note inside that said, "April Fools!" FML"

"Today, I took the bus to work and a sweet old lady got on after me and sat next to me. Halfway to work, she fell asleep and her head was on my shoulder. Trying to be nice, I gently tried to wake her up before my stop came. She wasn't sleeping. I let a dead woman lie on me for 30 minutes. FML"

"Today, I was about to lose my virginity with my girlfriend of 2 years, when I got an urgent phone call from my 9-year-old sister, telling me I had to come home immediately. My grandma fell off the toilet and got stuck between the bowl and the wall. I'm not making this up. FML"

"Today, my parents yelled at me for 10 minutes without letting me get a word in edgewise for getting a 48 on my test. They took my phone, unplugged my internet, and took my car keys. They wouldn't listen no matter how many times I told them "It was out of 50". It actually was. FML"

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Hahahahaha.. all this shit cracks me up. Laughing like a retard now :DD

Just for laugh

2009-08-11T14:59:00.002+08:00

Hahahahahaha, just for laugh =p

Happy 44th Birthday Singapore (:

2009-08-10T02:20:00.000+08:00

CRAPPPPPPPPPPPPP~ Still cannot upload pickos, dunno what's wrong with blogger too. Its superly irritating. Butt, i'm still happyyyy, cos its Singapore 44th birthday (:

Spend my day watching NDP at home with meimei and irritating brother. OKAY LA! Nothing much, very lazy to update.

I wanna eat choco !!!!!

The story of typical women

2009-08-07T21:17:00.009+08:00

I think most girls wouldn't be satisfied with their figures no matter how good it looks. They will be saying..

Typical women 1: Shittt~ I'm gaining weight.
Typical women 2: Aiya, my face is fat.
Typical women 3: Oh no, my butt is so ....
Typical women 4: Wah die, my friend seems slimmer than me.
Typical women 5: If only i can lose 2 more kg, i'll look better in this dress.

Yes Yes Yes.. The list goes on and on...

So, have you ever thought of slimming down, even though your friends said you look okay? *nod nod* (Ohhh, i can sense there's a lot of girls nodding!)

Yep, me too have tried to slim down. I still remember the most extreme way I've tried is ..
Not eating anything.

Yes.. The longest period I've gone without food is around 1 week. Of cos i still eat fruits, like apple and drink a lot of plain water. Indeed i managed to lose weight, around 5kg. (Mind you, 5kg in one week is bloody hell a lot!!)

Typical women: Wahh.. so good~ that's a lot.

Yep, I thought so too. But then, My weight doesn't seem to drop anymore in the 2nd week.

Typical women: Continue not eating lo, since can lose so many kg.

Buttt.. How can i resists all these

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Yesss ! All these sinful thing you see above is so TEMPTINGGGGG ~ How can i still control myself after starving for 1 week?? you tell me la ~

So, in the end ...

I found myself eating AGAIN, even more than before. Gaining back weight that I've already lost. EHHH NO NO, I gained much more weight. BLOODY HELLLL ~

I can even sense something screaming at me :(

And that thing is
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So sad lo, even my weighing machine wanna scream at me :((

Hmmmmm.. so what should i do to slim down efficiently and healthily ?? *Ponderinggggg*

OHHH WAIT WAIT!!! I remember reading some cool slimming technology that can help me.

Typical women: What What??? tell me tell me!
Jess: Don't want! It's a secret.
Typical Women: Tell me lei, PLEASEEEEE~
Jess: Hmmmm.. you cannot tell anybody k?
Typical women: OKOK, FASTERRRR TELL MEEE
Jess: The secret is .... Ultra Cavitation!
Typical women: HUH?? Cavi what? What is that?
Jess: C-A-V-I-T-A-T-I-O-N, its the latest technology in slimming.
Typical women: Safe a not? Why never hear this slimming technology before?
Jess: Of cos safe la! You know it requires a N2 license anot?
Typical women: N2 license? You mean from National Environment Agency?
Jess: YES YES
Typical women: WHOAAAAA~ Tell me more about this cavitation thingy!
Jess: Okay.. it actually makes use of stable cavitations to obtain the best results by breaking fat cells membrane through the bursting of micro-bubbles. The complex fatty acids are then broken down into simpler fatty acids. These simple fatty acids can then be passed out through excretory system.
Typical women: Hmmmm?
Jess: Ai ya, let me show you a picture about what happens during cavitation.

Typical women: Seems Quite good
Jess: Of cos good.. 1. Body weight is loss, 2. Fat tissues are reduced, 3. No collateral effects
Typical women: Hmmm?
Jess: Hai ya, show you evidence, don't say I lie to you.

Typical women: omggggg, I wanna try!
Jess: Then what you still waiting for???

“Make an appointment with Cenosis right now, to find out how you can benefit from this wonderful technology at a special price of $33. Call 7000 700 6626 or visit www.cenosis.biz/cavitation.php to make an appointment.”

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JasJess

2009-08-07T15:27:00.000+08:00

Boring night resulted to this.

Boring!

2009-08-06T18:25:00.000+08:00

Boringggggggggggggggggg~ I am so so so so so so so bored la. Wanted to go back school for talk but couldn't wake up in the end. RAHHHHH !

I wanted to upload pickos, but damn blogger is so lousy nowadays.
I wanted to go eat sushi, but but but..
I wanted to watch drama, but when i hit play, i couldn't concentrate.

Something wrong with me.

UT3 coming soon, time to study. Jess o Jess GOGOGO !!

weird dreams

2009-07-31T23:10:00.000+08:00

Keep having weird dreams this few days, don't ask me what all the dreams about, i can't remember. And i'm feeling very tired no matter how long i sleep.

Anyway .. after fyp, there's nothing much for me to do, skip sch like dunno what. Decided to cut short my hair. Hmmm.. acually, i still not sure la, very scary lo. The last time i had short hair is when i'm in K1 K2, so freaking long ago. See how bah.

我对你有一点点心动。

Fyp presentation DONE!

2009-07-29T15:49:00.002+08:00

HAPPPPPPYYYYY ! Finally done with fyp, though the presentation didn't went out so well. Damn the 2 faci. !@#$%^&*

Pizza hut after fyp, full plus happy (:

I think i'm going to sleep now, i only slept for 3 hours last night. Dying already. Nights all.

fyp evaluation on wed

2009-07-28T02:19:00.003+08:00

When everybody is rushing out their report or touching up their proj on sun, im at my house having steamboat. Whoooo damn happy (: Lucky i manage to finish up everything on sat night, thats why i can relax on sun.

Anyway.. hy alr submitted the disc. And that bloody advisor just tell us that we are having our presentation on wed. He seriously damn wth. Anyway, meeting deon to do the ppt tml after sch. Hope everything's goes smoothly during the presentation.

k bye all.

craving for something sweet

2009-07-26T22:58:00.001+08:00

Craving for something sweet now.

Ice cream or choc.

Blahhh.

Boring.

Lazy to update my fyp weekly log.

Staring at the com for at least 10 hours

2009-07-25T05:24:00.002+08:00

Today is a very crap day. Met up with hy at bugis for fyp. Stay at a cafe for uber long. Finally the game is finished, now im designing.

I should have finish it by today, but its 5.26am now, and my eyes is really closing ): I think i'm gonna sleep first. There's still alot of things waiting for me to do tomorrow.

PS: I have been staring at the com for more than 10 hours ! fyp is CRAP !

AS vs PHP

2009-07-22T01:08:00.003+08:00

I just realised, i actually like php. Oh my oh my, if others saw this, they might think i'm crazy. =p
Buttt i really prefer php than AS, AS and java really aint my thing, i don't why too. Maybe its cos i skip too many classes alr.

Anyway, hy pass me the flashgame to do the php codes. And i actually manage to do it ((: whoooo~ happy happy! I can't even solve the smallest prob from actionscript. wth lo!

Everything seems fine now, waiting for hy to code finish, then pass me to design. Report almost done. Those that are excited about fyp presentation must be crazy :D

I think I think, i'm gonna study more about php and css/html.

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counting down : 5 days

Subway melt

2009-07-21T12:45:00.003+08:00

Woooo~ i wanna update last night, but there's something wrong with blogger. So, here i am now ((:

School is getting more and more boring.. left half way on ytd class, met up with advisor with hy. Lucky there's no big problems now, left abit of coding and design. ((:

Subway after that, subway melt is love :D

No mood

2009-07-20T02:01:00.001+08:00

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Quick update

2009-07-19T21:49:00.002+08:00

Feeling very vexed, don't know why also. Anywayy.. went over to jy's last night, stay over. I can't believe its sunday alr.

There's class and fyp tml. ):

My stomach feels abit weird, i think i ate something wrong, AGAIN.

The real you

2009-07-17T22:10:00.002+08:00

The real you

Here is the analysis:

You are a very serious person. You tend to be quiet and well behaved, and you don't have a great deal of self-confidence. You prefer to be alone rather than with friends and that could make you a little less interesting to certain types of guys. You are very attractive in an individual kind of way, and this means it can take people a little while to get to like you.

You really care about other people's feelings and are quite serious about the issues that affect your life. You are sincere, and your concern for the well-being of others makes many people want to be your friend.

You strictly follow rules, and you expect other people to be the same as well. People can get tired of you easily, as you can make them feel a little guilty about themselves. You always make decisions on your own, and can be dismissive of other people's advice. You like to be the leader in groups, but can forget to be concerned about the people you are with.

Guys see you as being a thinker and a careful person. They will be really attracted to this quality in you, but you need to learn to speak your mind, otherwise people will find you too shy and quiet. Learn to relax and lighten up--it's okay to have fun sometimes. When you learn to develop your fun-loving side, guys are going to flock to your side.

Your boyfriend believes that you are a strong and independent person. Your confidence and cheerfulness make you an attractive person to be around, but sometimes you need to pay more attention to what other people, including your boyfriend, are thinking.

What i want

2009-07-17T18:40:00.004+08:00

I am so so so so dead, test was rather hard. Cluster Cluster Clusterrrr ~ so shit, i don't even know how many cluster are there ):

Steamboat this sun is not going to happen.
I had a nice dream.
I think i'm going crazy.
I think you sucks.
I think...

THERE'S SOMETHING WRONG WITH MY EAR

fyp

2009-07-17T00:21:00.002+08:00

Fyp making my head spin, two more weeks and its over. Now, i don't even care if i got a C or a D seriously damn pissed.

thanks L for hearing me whine again, tyty (:

Fats

2009-07-16T20:58:00.002+08:00

Went back school for ut, test was quite ok (:
BK with hy and bj.

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Close your eyes
Think of someone
Who is it that you see?

Love or Bread

2009-07-16T00:21:00.002+08:00

Love or Bread?

Stayover

2009-07-13T13:34:00.002+08:00

Went shopping with mama and meimei. Each of us got a pair of shoes (: Went to astons for dinner, the steak was superb~ i like i like. The price was so reasonable too.

Went to meet jy after that. Drinking wine at beach is godamn cool, laughing like mad. I swear people walking/running by thought that we are drunk/crazy/insane.

Crush at jy place.

Human traffic

2009-07-10T19:59:00.003+08:00

Ridiculous human traffic JAM !!

Java UT was like shit, there's only 3 questions. All the question i'm not really sure how to do =/ Jess ah, GOOD LUCK !

Anyway, school was flooded by people after test. I swear all of us look like ants crawling out of school la ~ can't even get in the stupid lift when i'm at level 6!

Reflection

2009-07-09T02:33:00.005+08:00

Look at me you may think you see
Who I really am but you'll never know me
Every day, is as if I play apart
Now I see if I wear a mask
I can fool the world but I can not fool my heart

Who is that girl I see staring straight back at me?
When will my reflection show who I am inside?

I am now in a world where I
have to hide my heart and what I believe in
But somehow I will show the world
What's inside my heart and be loved for who I am

Who is that girl I see staring straight back at me?
Why is my reflection someone I don't know?

Must I pretend that i'm someone else for all time?
When will my reflection show who I am inside?

There's a heart that must be free to fly
That burns with a need to know the reason why

Why must we all conceal what we think how we feel
Must there be a secret me I'm forced to hide?
I won't pretend that i'm someone else for all time
When will my reflections show who I am inside?
When will my reflections show who I am inside?

Bangs

2009-07-08T00:40:00.002+08:00

credits: http://dovehairtherapy.com.sg/

Haahahaha! Bangs looks so weirdddd on me, guess i can never get this haircut!! Anywayyy ~ met up with jy, jq and wm! Spend the whole night reminiscing bout our sec school life, it was great really (:

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Okay jess, 10 more 10 more.

Too tired

2009-07-06T23:50:00.004+08:00

I love today class faciii ((: He is totally coooool cos i'm late for half an hour and he din mark me as lateee! And we only have two groups presenting today.

Met up with jy just now for dinner at eighteen chef! Super affordable and niceee~ i like!! I miss the 2 dollar chicken rice too, gonna have it sometime! Talk bout lotsa things with her, keep laughing non stop la.

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Where will I be five years down the road....?

fyp sucks big time

2009-07-06T00:41:00.002+08:00

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The story of Tree, Wind, Leaf

2009-07-02T20:47:00.004+08:00

BEWARE: A super long post, but definitely worth reading.
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People call me "Tree".

I had dated 5 girls when I was in Pre-U. There is one girl who I love a lot but never dared to go after. She didn't have a pretty face, good figure or an outstanding charm. She was just a very ordinary girl. I liked her. I really liked her. I liked her innocence, her frankness, her intelligence and her fragility. Reason for not going after her was that I felt somebody so ordinary like her was not a good match for me. I was also afraid that after we were together all the feelings would vanish. I was also afraid other's gossip would hurt her.

I felt that if she were my girl, she'd be mine ultimately & I didn't have to give up eve rything just for her. The last reason, made her accompanying me for 3 years. She watched me chase other girls, and I have made her heart cry for 3 years. She was a good actor, and me a demanding director. When I kissed my second girlfriend, she bumped into us. She was embarrassed but smiled & said, "Go on!" before running off. The next day, her eyes were swollen like a walnut. I did not want to know what caused her to cry. Later that day, I returned from soccer training to get something & watched her cry in the classroom for an hour or so. My fourth girlfriend did not like her. There was once when both of them quarreled. I know that based on her character she is not the type that will start the quarrel. However, I still sided my girlfriend. I shouted at her & ignored her feelings and walked off with my girlfriend. The next day, she was laughing & joking with me like nothing happened. I know she was hurt but she did not know deep down inside I was hurt too.

When I broke up with my fifth girlfriend, I asked her out. Later that day, I told her I had something to tell her. I told her about my break up. Coincidentally, she has something to tell me too, about her getting together. I knew who the person was. His pursuit for her had been the talk of the School. I did not show her my heartache, just smiles & best wishes. Once I reached home, I could not breathe. Tears rolled & I broke down. How many times have I seen her cry for the man who did not acknowledge her presence?

During graduation, I read a SMS in my hp. It said, "Leaf's departure is because of Wind's pursuit. Or because Tree didn't ask her to stay"
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People call me Leaf.

During the 3 years of Pre-U, I was on very close terms with a guy as buddy kind. However, when he had his first girlfriend, I learnt a feeling I never should have learnt - Jealousy. Sourness to the extreme limit. They were only together for 2 months. When they broke up, I hid my happiness. But after a month, he got together with another girl.

I liked him & I know he liked me. But why won't he pursue me? Since he loves me why he didn't he make the first move? Whenever he had a new girlfriend, my heart would hurt. After some time, I began to suspect that this was one-sided love. If he didn't like me, why did he treat me so well? It's beyond what you will normally do for a friend. I know his likes, his habits. But his feelings towards me I can never figure out. You can't expect me a girl, to ask him. Despite that, I still wanted to be by his side. Care for him, accompany him, and love him. Hoping that one day, he will come to love me. Because of this, I waited for him. Sometimes, I wondered if I should continue waiting. The pain, the dilemma accompanied me for 3 years.

At the end of my 3rd year, a junior pursues me. Everyday he pursues me. He's like the cool & gentle wind, trying to blow off a leaf from a tree. In the end, I realized that I wanted to give this wind a small footing in my heart. I know the wind will bring the leaf to a better land. Finally, leaf left the tree, but the tree only smiled & didn't ask me to stay. Leaf's departure is because of Wind's pursuit. Or cause Tree didn't ask her to stay.
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Wind

Because I like a girl called leaf. Because she's so dependent on tree, so I have to be a gust wind. A wind that will blow her away. When I first met her, it was 1 month after I was transferred to this new school. I saw a petite person look ing at my seniors & me playing soccer. During ECA time, she will always be sitting there. Be it alone or with her friends, looking at him. When he talks with girls, there's jealousy in her eyes. When he looked at her, there's a smile in her eyes. Looking at her became my habit. Just like, she likes to look at him.

One day, she didn't appear. I felt something missing. I can't explain the feeling except it's a kind of uneasiness. The senior was also not there as well. I went to their classroom, hid outside and saw my senior scolding her. Tears were in her eyes while he left. The next day, I saw her at her usual place, looking at him. I walked over and smiled to her. Took out a note & gave to her. She was surprised. She looked at me, smiled & accepts the note. The next day, she appeared & passes me a note and left.

It read, "Leaf's heart is too heavy and wind couldn't blow her away." "It's not that leaf heart is too heavy. It because leaf never want to leave tree." I replied her note with this statement and slowly she started to talk to me & accept my presents & phone calls. I know that the person she loves is not me. But I have this perseverance that one day I will make her like me. Within 4 months, I have declared my love for her no less than 20 times. Every time, she will divert away from the topic. But I never give up. If I decide I want her to be mine, I will definitely use all means to win her over. I can't remember how many times I have declared my love to her. Although I know, she will try to divert but I still bear a small ray of hope.

Hoping that she will agree to be my girlfriend. I didn't hear any reply from her over the phone. I asked, "What are you doing? How come you didn't want to reply?" She said, "I'm nodding my head". "Ah?" I could n't believe my ears. "I'm nodding my head" She replied loudly. I hang up the phone, quickly changed and took a taxi and rush to her place & press her doorbell. During the moment when she opens the door, I hugged her tightly.

Leaf departure is because of Wind pursuit. Or because Tree didn't ask her to stay...

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We only start to cherish when things are gone.
We will always take things for granted when things are ours.

That's life huh?

I read this story about 3 years back, couldnt stop myself from reading it again.
credits: http://www.citehr.com/3871-love-tree-wind-leaf.html

Daily routin.

2009-07-01T14:10:00.003+08:00

Skipped school half way on mon, went back home to rest. Met up with jy, wh and gary for dinner at redhill after wh finished study for his jap. After dinner, went west coast park to chill.

Home sweet home around 12 (:

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ytd jy came my house to search for jobs. Dinner at CS with jy and bs. Ask jq to join us at starbucks to chill. Crazy-ly laughing at all the stupid jokes.

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Going out with meimei later.. see yaaaa !!

Truth that hurts

2009-06-30T00:37:00.000+08:00

I'm tired.

H1N1 in Republic Poly hit 51

2009-06-28T23:50:00.001+08:00

Oh my! There's 599 cases of h1n1 in singapore, and 51 of them comes from rp. The no. just keep growing.. when will it ever stop? Hmmm .. people are all discussing/blaming rp for not shutting down the school. Quote from fb :

"I think RP will close down when 100 people kena h1n1, they are not happy with the number yet, thats why never close down"

"and now, RP is moving towards 50! *clap clap* Can someone please issue an award to them? Otherwise they might hit 100 one day."

"as of 28 june, 2009, 12:57 a.m, there are 43 confirmed cases of H1N1 in RP, but STILL they are not doing anything. are they trying to make us all fall sick so they can take another year of our school fees?"

You know, RP is different from other poly, even if you got sick and produce a mc it doesnt help because our GPA is calculated by daily grade and UT. Which means, you can't really missed any of the lesson. So what happen is .. those that got qurantined still need to complete their daily lessons via the Learning Environment Online (LEO) at home.

Anyway, School have send us mail saying that the virus cannot survive more than 8 hours. And if students are really sick, they can send in their mc to apply for LOA.

I still think rp should really close down for 3-7 days just to make sure the virus is not spreading anymore.

Here's some information about the virus:
http://www.channelnewsasia.com/stories/specialreport/view/1523/1/.html

Fulll

2009-06-28T02:06:00.002+08:00

Had 鱼头颅, toufu, vege, roasted duck, pork ribs, andddd beer for dinner! Damn full now. Dad and bro got drunk i think, they can turn really talkative when they are drunk damnit! My brother is !@#$%^&* !

Bored bored bored bored bored!!!

I wanna get my bike license ASAP!

Biggest news ever

2009-06-27T01:58:00.002+08:00

Michael Jackson has passed away suffering from heart problems. I don't really pay attention to such news but, this was different, i'm listening to 98.7fm just now and the DJ said : "Goggle and Yahoo almost crash because too many people are searching for the news" Whoa.. I din know he's 50 already. Anyway .. This news seems like the biggest news ever.

Back to reality! Went swimming with jy and aiden (: He is superly scare of the water~ We are like damn evil keep forcing him to get inside the pool. Din really swim, i cant swim also. Buttt, i had funnnnn ~ TY (:

Attendance still as shit. Fyp? No comments.

til then (:

msn is crap

2009-06-25T23:47:00.002+08:00

Okay, i finally finished the new layout. (without mouse!) I'm going to bathe and sleep. Superly tired idk why. Msn still as crap !@#$%^&*

Petition?

2009-06-24T23:52:00.003+08:00

Just got online and straight away receive link from my class mate asking me to sign the petition thingy. Anyway.. in case you guys are living in a cave and dunno anything about h1n1, my sch have two cases of it. Both of them are year 1 i think.

The petition goes like this..

To: Republic Polytechnic
Dear year 2 and 3 students of Republic Polytechnic (RP):

Our school has announced the temporary stoppage of classes for Year 1 students in our school. As stated from the official e-mail sent to us, the reason was because they felt that the Year 1 students have a higher possibility of being in contact with the students caught with H1N1.

This reason is only true to a certain extent as everyone from RP should know how open our campus is. Any students could have access to every area of the school as long as the doors are unlocked. The infected students could have been to anywhere in the school before they were found to be infected.

Being human beings just like every year 1 student, we should not be going to classes just because we have lesser chance of being in contact with the year 1 infected students, as we share an equal high level of risk similar to the year 1 students because the virus could be anywhere in our campus.

This is also not only about the case of our school having infected students, but also to prevent our uninfected students from getting H1N1 from external sources as well. NYP is the first poly to announce the suspension of classes to minimize the risk of their students getting H1N1. RP should be doing this as well because of the cases from our institution.

Therefore, the purpose of this petition aims at trying to get RP to suspend classes for the year 2 and 3 students till at least the 1st of July.

Sincerely,
The Undersigned
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Rp really made a wrong choice handling the situation. And how can they not know there won't be a petition from year 2 & 3?

Popeye

2009-06-24T02:34:00.002+08:00

Met up with jy and jq for dinner. Dinner wass superbbbb (: chill at coffee bean til 10 plus.

Jy thinks that she's a guy

2009-06-23T00:11:00.004+08:00

Okay, ytd was a disaster. I think i ate something wrong, stomach was damn pain and vomited, oh crap. I need to lie flat on my stomach in order to stop the pain, but i couldn't sleep like this. BUTTT, i still manage to wake up for schhhh today (: Sch was alright, the time passed veryyy slowly and i was freezing cold.

Jy cutttt her hair short againnnnn, i think nice lo, she say look like guy. I'm wondering if i should cut short too. hmmm... Anyway, she came to my house after her haircut, and have dinner with her and wei hang at.. err.. simpang? (GREAT! i don't rem), the dinner mostly untouched, but the stingray is delicioussss.

Have yet to do my rj, today question is S-T-U-P-I-D.
Have yet to start researching on my fyp actionscript thingy.
Wondering if i can wake up for sch tml?

Father's Day

2009-06-22T00:18:00.005+08:00

Mother's day always seem more important than Father's day, idk why too. Anyway, still celebrated, we had a simple dinner at coffee shop, crab, toufu, vege, prawn ((: no beer this time round.

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you can't get the best of both worlds.

2009-06-21T18:38:00.002+08:00

DAMN EVERYTHINGGG!!!~

What will be will be

2009-06-21T02:26:00.000+08:00

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is it me that you are seeing?

2009-06-20T03:56:00.002+08:00

Have been repeating bon jovi - always on my lappy. I think im going to sleep now (:
Til then. You know, some people can be just so plain rude. !@#$%^&*

The weather is so...

2009-06-19T01:59:00.004+08:00

You know, the weather this few weeks can be so unbearable during the day, but I won’t whine much because most of the times I’ll be in school that is 90% air-conditioned. Buttttt, My house isn’t air-conditioned! So at night, my house can get so stuffy that I wished I can just grab my laptop and head down to the void deck to enjoy the night breeze and continue chatting with my friends and fb-ing.

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